I hope you always keep experimenting and trying things.
Most of the time we want to know each step of the way before we get there, and we forget that all of the great composers and improvisers we admire were “winging it.”
Beethoven didn’t have anyone tell him to begin a symphony on a dominant 7th chord, and Debussy and Stravinsky were definitely making up form and vocabulary as they went along. Charlie Parker played notes that no other sax player in jazz was playing. And nobody had written a song like “Penny Lane” before Paul McCartney did.
These musicians followed no predetermined path.
Yes, have a North Star that you’re aiming for, but don’t expect there to be a yellow brick road to get you there. That road is waiting for you to pave!